She Wants Revenge "Animal Attraction"

There she was.

Blonde,
Bold,
Barefooted.

Radiant like a little sun in the summer twilight.

This rush is beastly.
Like a run through the primal forests and deserts of this earth.
The cheerful, playful pounce of a tiger.

And you know what?
This animal thing...
There's nothing wrong with it.

Anne Trolle/Peder "White Lilies"

Summer night.
3AM.
The room is full of smoke, the radio still playing...

Your bodies glisten in the yellow light.

You look at her.
She smiles.
Her eyes are sly, playful, almost arrogant.
With a sparkle of nearly maddening freedom.
She looks like a cat that has just chased it's prey into a corner and has finally enjoyed its taste.
Tired... relaxed... yet ready to pounce again.

You light a cigarette.
You take a deep breath.
Life is rushing through our veins.
It's intoxicating.

Farin Urlaub "Augenblick"

Grey. The world was fucking grey that day. As if to make it all feel so much more unrealistic.
The sky didn't fit that day. And yet I remember it was grey.

We'd gone with Her to the beach, to get the towels. It wasn't a beach day - everything seemed to be too grey.
And then we saw the pier in the distance.
And hand in hand we walked to the pier and to the end of the pier.
One could feel the salty spray of the waves...
The smell of sea and rain...
The noise of  the forces of nature...
Drowning everything away.
The rest of the world fades...

*THUMP*

A hug.

*THUMP*

Her hair flying in the cool breeze

*THUMP*

A kiss.

*THUMP*

The endless blue-greyish horizon in the distance.

*THUMP*

I remember...

*THUMP*

Every...

*THUMP*

Beat...

Metisse "Nomah's Land"

There is a moon high above me.
Bigger and brighter than you could have ever seen it.
Stars.
A myriad of unknown, unseen, untouched constellations.
And the blackness of empty space.

And yet...

You can see it slowly fade away.
You can trace the line of the sky and see it slowly grow from black to purple and from purple...
To the deepest, brightest blue a sky can ever be.
And then you see the sun.
This enormous, bright, rejuvenating orb of pure, untouched, untainted light.

The sky is shining... Then you trace it to the clouds of mists... And then to those of thunderous rage.

Repent.

It is all I want to do.
And yet...
We are godless you and I.
We have ourself. We have our compass and we have our bag.

We want forgiveness. We need to be forgiven.
Yet the only ones we ask it of is our selves.
The only one that can forgive is me.

But, alas...
In the vastness of this forest that we call out world...
In all its shrines and ruins.
In all its caves and rivers.
Even in the tents of wandering tribes.

There is not a single mirror.









Yet.

Kylie Minogue "Confide in Me"

There's a land out there...

A land - entirely populated by mental images we have created.
Of people we've known.
Of people we've later met.
Of people we've yet to meet.
Of people we're not going to meet.
                    
They live there their silent lives. Each individual serving only one purpose.
To allow us to speak.
To allow us to say the things we couldn't say,
                                                   we didn't say,
                                             we shouldn't say.

We're a professional you and I. A professional wastebin for emotional garbage.
We should know how it's done. How to procure the services of one such as us.
How to use their services best.
But we don't.

So we create those people. We talk to them, with them. We listen to what we have to say to ourself.

There's a land of mental images out there.
A land that exists solely because of our silent shouts, hisses and speeches.
Every hit we never threw.
Every spiteful comment held behind out teeth.
Every "I love you" that was ever hidden.

A land of voiceless screams.

One day we may not need this land.
One day we may always say what we think.
Wether because we've grown as shallow as we want to be,
                                             or as open as no one should be.
But until that day there's only this.
There's you, there's me, and there are shadows.
There's always someone to confide in.

We can always have our voiceless screams.

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Live "Run Away"

It's warm.
There's a boulevard on our left.
Traffic.
We don't see it.
We don't hear it.

There are trees, grass and flowers on our right.

And then there's the road in front.
Long.
Straight.
With a sunset high above it.

We grab the strap of our bag an light a cigarette.

There's nothing else in this world.
Just us, the road ahead and that beautiful sunset.

We start walking.

Forward.

Always forward.

Chase the sun.

Placebo "Post Blue"

I remember those initial weeks of intoxication.

We told her truths. She answered likewise.
We'd meet her in secret, hide her from everyone...
She didn't want our partners to know...

Intoxication.
Bliss.
It was all so special.
So surreal.
So... Addictive.

Her embrace and her kisses.
Thieving. Stealing Time's most precious of moments...
Struggling, hiding, lying, knowing, fighting, caring...
Never sharing...

We broke the back of love for her.
We broke the back of love with her.

And in the end - We broke it All.

Goo Goo Dolls "Iris"

The gentle touch of hot, soft skin.
The sound of ice cubes cracking in the darkness.

Tsuneo Imahori "Divine Decision"

Cold dark night in the small town.

Near Her house.

Running.

You keep me silent.
All is silent, save for our footsteps and a dog, barking wildly from somewhere.
You tell it to shut up.
Quietly.
It does so.

Running.

The sound of feet hitting the ground.

She asked us to go get Him.
He'll help her. We know.
You can't.
And it seems that I can't either.

Running.

You ask yourself why she's stuck with us.
Why she can't be with Him.
Why it's only He, who can help her when she's down.
Who can help her pull herself together.
Make her smile.

I asked why you're doing this.
Why we were running.

"Because she needs Him."
That was your answer.
That was your only reason to fetch Him for her.
OUR only reason.

And we kept running.